In The Midst

I realized today while reading other blogs that I really miss writing. I keep “trying to get around to it” or “find the time”, but since I don’t know if either will ever happen, I’m just going to do it. J As I am writing this, I just finished creating a ‘to do’ list for the next couple of days that is a mile long. Also, it is   getting close to midnight so I should probably be sleeping. However, this moment is a perfect one for writing because the baby is sleeping and Jason is working nightshift at the hospital.

Where to start is the challenging question. My mind is again swirling with thoughts, ideas, topics, and stories. Memories from Kenya, becoming a mother, re-adjusting to life back in the States and with Jason back in residency, family situations, patients at work, job opportunities, moving again… And then there are also the little things that can somehow still be fun to write about sometimes– cooking, shopping, exercise, photography, music, daily life details…

So my new goal is to begin writing once a week. I’m telling myself that it doesn’t have to be deep and thought provoking each time, but that I need to at least write something once a week just to get into the habit again. If it’s more, that’s great. Less is unacceptable. J

My overriding thought for today is in the title of this post. I continually long to live fully “in the midst” of it all – the busyness, crazy schedules, interruptions, piles of laundry, sink full of dishes, crying baby, dusty shelves, dirty floors, phone calls to make, errands to run… Right in the middle of it all is where I want to hear God’s voice, sense His presence, and be changed.

"Lord, teach me how to be still. Not when things around me are still, but in the midst of it all."