Imperfect Success: "We Are Trying"

This is a poem I wrote for Jason a couple months ago when it felt like this season of life was overwhelming us. God has been so good and gracious to remind us of where our foundation lies -- and that it is unshakable.

My hand is holding yours

But your heart feels far away

It’s no one’s fault

We are trying.

You work so hard

Long hours away

Busy hours at home

You are trying.

I care for the boys

Prepare our meals

Open our home

I am trying.

We try so hard

But it’s never enough

We both feel pain

We are missing each other.

Our conversations are short

We quickly fall asleep

Our hearts are worn

Do we just keep trying??

We reminisce what was

We’re strangers here

It’s like two separate lives

When it ought to be one.

So you take a day off

We schedule a date

Conversation is strained

Do we just keep trying??

You walk to the park

I sit and pray

The Lord whispers to me

“You both are succeeding.”

He brings to my mind

Love is patient and kind

It does not envy or boast

But makes another matter most

Love isn’t arrogant or rude

It doesn’t bend to a mood

Instead of rejoicing at wrong

It rejoices long

At truth and not resentment

Love bears all things with contentment

Belief and hope endure

Because Love is secure.

So my darling, my love

Please know this,

Nothing is lost

We are succeeding.

You’re so patient with me

You are kind and consistent

You expend yourself daily

You are succeeding.

I work through my emotions

I speak truth to encourage

I persevere when struggling

I am succeeding.

We love in action

The emotions will return

We are tired and worn

But we are succeeding.

Our hope is secure

Our love WILL endure

Because it comes from our Savior
We are succeeding.